I really hate the idea of living

I am turning 24 in 2020 and currently living with my parents and my older sister. I am a guy.

I love my parents because they had done so much for my sake.
But i really despise my sister.

i despise her so much it made me hate all other girl. i just think all other girls are the same. of course this is based from my experience with girls too. Girls are just selfish creature who act and think like they are benefiting the society. except my parents.

Let me tell you why i draw this conclusion.
My sister scold me all the time for many reason.
1. when i was on college, i live in a boarding house. my mother tend to visit and stay for a few days. my sister told me i need to live on my own and she pity my father because he was left alone at home. but wait, my mother will visit me for each 3-6 months and stayed for maximum 5 days.

2. my sister chased me with a knive when i was at elementary school when my parents were not at home. i forgot what happened.

3. she scold me if she find me 'lazed' around. for example, if my mother was doing the laundry or sweeping the floor. But on the other side, i never see her helping my mom either. I help my mother more than her.

4. my experience with girl, basically money sucking, using me for my skills or ability, i even got trapped in a multi level marketting because of my friend. a girl of course. they are defiant, and will use you until you have nothing left.

5. the last. i played shuttlecock with my friends for 1 year and i get quite close with a girl. i talked and went out with her a lot. until recently, one of my friend that play shuttlecock with me introduced new friends to her. since that time, we barely keep in touch. in the end, the group i played with had a problem because of the schedule. the newcomer forced the older member to change the schedule. i rejected that idea and that same bitch took their side.

6. at high school, i was really close to this one girl. to be honest, i am considered in the 'smart' group at school especially in math and physics. and i teach this girl a lot she became close to me. but when we went to separate college, she just abandoned me.

of course there are MANY other reasons why i despise woman. but that does not make me gay. i like girls sexually, but i just traumatized by the experience. i don't think i will last long with them.

I don't want to involved in marriage. because of all the girls i've met with. especially my sister.

And to make it worse, i found my purpose in life. that is to make my parents happy.

Why i said it is worse? because when my parents are gone, i will definitely kill myself.

There is nothing else worth to protect, worth to pursuit.

Is it normal for me to think like this?