I simulate a penis to masturbate
Ever since I was young every night before I sleep I roll up a small blanket with a ball between my legs the rest twisted outward like a penis and rub my hands up and down it. I've done this before I ever knew what a penis was and it's the only way I can get off. I'm comfortable with my femininity but for some reason I feel like I should have a penis. Sometimes I can even feel it between my legs, I can tell you it's exact shape. I'm not transgender so I need to know why I feel this way.