I take on other personalities to feel more confident

For a few years now I've noticed that I'm prone to adopt other personalities whether by choice or sometimes even involuntarily.

It most often happens after watching a movie with a strong lead character. I can feel the urge to become them. All the traits, from mannerisms, behaviour, psychology, and of course they way the speak, is all so clear to me. It might be due to fairly low confidence, or all my self loathing, but I seem to be dying to get out of my skin and into someone else's. It's easier to be them. It doesn't take much thought. I know what they're going to say and how they'll react. But being me is too confusing, not to sound dramatic. I'm just conflicted or undecided about almost everything.

Anywho, whether this be a curse or a gift, I'm not sure. I've decided to volunteer at a local theatre to express this part of myself.

If there's anyone else like this I'd like to hear from you.

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  • TrustMeImLying

    It is a double edged sword. The gift is being able to put yourself in shoes other than your own (if only to imitate) and have a much greater and thorough understanding of a person, idea or opinion. And the curse is being indecisive and conflicted because of that very reason.

    Is the self-loathing because of your indecisiveness? Or something else?

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    • I've been meditating on exactly why it is that I hate myself. And I think it's because I never really spent the time to get to know myself or grow into who I think I was meant to be. Instead I choice to adapt or be who I thought others wanted me to be. I didn't fake being one person I faked being many people and so I brought on habits and ways of thinking that were unlike myself and now I have some sort of frankenstein personality.

      I think I know who I should be. Who I could be. On days where things go right, I get a glimpse of the happy, confident and outgoing person I used to be, but I can't seem to hold onto it.

      So I'm just utterly unsatisfied with who I am and I feel like I can't change now matter how much I want to. There it is.

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  • tooks

    Not quite the same, but I used to put on different accents to feel more confident. Playing a role allows you to step outside of your insecurities and feel more secure - if anyone criticises you they are criticising the character and not the 'real' you. It's a fairly normal way of coping for a lot of people. However, you should probably work on building your self-esteem so gradually you will feel more comfortable being yourself and not playing a character around people. Not being able to 'be yourself' will cause you frustration in the longterm.

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    • You've summed up my thoughts wonderfully. If only it were so easy. I can't give up, though.

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  • modernism

    Usually whenever I just get out of the movies after watching some explosion Russian Mafia movie with tons of actions and stuff, I feel a little too cocky with my imaginary gun.

    That only lasts a short time though. It'd only be a problem if you took it too seriously and incorporated it into your daily life. Try to find out what personality feels some natural to you and stick with that. It might be a bit of a trouble to constantly stay in character.

    Staying on the topic of personalities, I know taking those online personality tests are a fun pass time. I would just keep in mind that not all are 100% accurate. Maybe exploring personalities will help you find your own.

    Good luck. :)

    P.S. This is a cool site I found for an accurate personality test. Seem legit.

    http://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test

    I'm a INFP.... even though that means nothing to you, haha. It's crazy how much your result really relates to you.

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    • It means a lot to me actually since I found some solace recently in identifying with the INFP personality type. But I could also easily be an ENFP. I'm kind of caught between the two.

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