I think i got ptsd from using a website
So this is embarrassing to admit, but I legitimately think I got PTSD from using a website (NOT this one. I discovered this later).
I was 12 years old when I signed up and I was homeschooled. So I shut in all day and had no friends. Every day I would go on the site. I would rush through my homework so I could use it. But the site was incredibly toxic.
I was exposed to all types of hate imaginable. I had no idea people were so prejudice and ignorant. Everything was about race and politics. I even experienced intraracial hatred (people from the same race but different ethnic background hating / looking down on me). It was insane. It left me feeling hopeless and inferior. The site had mods but they never did anything.
Eventually I quit the site but the memories still linger. I get angry and hurt all over again. Certain words or actions trigger the memories. Anytime someone of my ethnic group does something, I think back to those people. "What are they thinking? They were right. They are validated."
I hate it so much. I wish I had never gone on there. I can't erase the memories but I have managed to suppress them many times, but they always come back with a vengeance.