I think i'm smelling my body rotting internally

When people are together in a group and someone makes a comment like "I like that color of blue on that car," if others in the group see a blue car too, that's what it is. It's many of those little subtle checks that happen without you really thinking about it that makes it where you know what you are seeing is reality. That's why isolation is so bad for people mentally. They are missing those seemingly invisible reality checks.

When you talk about how only you can smell it, or how your organs are decaying but no one else agrees with you, I think it's normal that you feel suspicious of them. It's like if I was in that group of people and I made the comment about the car and someone else said that I was wrong and that it is red, I would think they are wrong. Maybe they are seeing it wrong because of the lighting or they are color blind or something. It would take a lot of people also saying it's red to convince me that I am the one seeing it wrong, and even then I would probably think they are playing a joke on me.

From my perspective, I don't think you are rotting, just as I see the car is blue. I think if you were rotting, others would know and you would probably know that they know because they would probably say something, or at least have a look on their face you could read. Do I think you are crazy? The answer is that I don't know. It really doesn't matter anyway. My point is if you aren't crazy, getting a psych exam will confirm that you aren't. If you really think you aren't crazy, then you shouldn't fear getting a psych exam, but you need to get one to find out if the car is red or blue. If it turns out you're not crazy, then it's one more thing you can rule out to narrow down the possibilities so you can find out what will help you with you're problem. If it turns out that it's something mentally wrong with you, I would hope that you realize that it's a good thing, because you have found the problem and that there is help you can get for it, and that there is nothing wrong with it. You didn't do it to yourself, it's just an chemical imbalance in your brain.

I would also like to say that if this has really been a problem for six months, the rotting brain and organs, you would be dead long before now. I replied to your post you made a few months ago, so I know this has been going on for some time. Another symptom of what you are describing is that you feel like you already are dead. You may not have that symptom or at least not yet, but it is something you need to be aware that it is not normal. If you either think you are dead or feel like you are dead, both are different problems, but both are definitely reasons to get help.

I'm not really sure I can convince you that something is wrong, at least not what you think is wrong. Even more than that, if I was given medication to help me and I didn't think something was wrong with me, it would feel like it was poison to me, and that it would harm me if I took it. I'm not trying to convince you that you should take medication. Again, I'm saying you need to find out if the car is red or blue and the way to do that is to get a psych exam, and probably some help passed that. If you want to fix the problem you are having, you need to be willing to say that you don't know what the problem is yourself. I don't know what the problem is; I'm not a doctor. I'm just guessing, but I doubt you are a doctor. You need to see one if you want to fix the problem.

You might not be crazy, but you are sick and disturbed. You really should check someone who can help. This is serious, dear!