I torture myself by going out

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It’s just what I do. I’m terribly antisocial, I should say, so terribly that I haven’t been able to make any friends in this new city in 3 years. Not one. I’m currently taking a gap year, and I don’t have a job either, so as you can guess, I don’t have much to do. I used to absolutely love that, it was just what I wanted, but lately it’s been getting really depressing. So I’ve been going out to malls and restaurants by myself, and I absolutely hate it, much much more than I hate sitting around and doing nothing at home. I just feel awkward, like everyone’s whispering things like “what a sad girl” to each other, since I’m almost always the only one by that’s on their own, mostly at restaurants and stores like Ikea where there are mostly couples and families. I know most people with social anxiety feel that way, and I know it’s not true, but I can’t help it at the moment. But I go out multiple times a week, it’s become a task in my mind. I know I’ll have a terrible time and end up buying shit I don’t need, but I feel guilty for staying home and I end up doing it.

Whatever, I don’t know why I’m writing this on here, I just need someone to hear my thoughts, I think. I have absolutely no one.

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  • HypnoDom
    5 years ago

    Those feelings are totally normal. I've always been socially awkward. In college I tried to make myself talk to someone new every day. It's very hard and doesn't always go well, but getting practice pushing yourself out of your comfort zone can help.

    I've learned that some social interactions tend to be more rewarding than others. Parties really don't do it for me. I might go to a conference though. Consider attending local Meetups or going to Toastmasters. Unless you have an excellent rapport with the servers, going out to restaurants alone tends to just feel awkward.

    Do really think about seeing a therapist! Better to have a professional advise you than us.

    Getting a job would also be good for you, emotionally and financially.

    Fingers crossed for you! It can be challenging, but it will be worth it.

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  • lordofopinions
    5 years ago

    Go grocery shopping. You can talk to total strangers about what product they feel is better and so on. They say the supermarket is a great place to meet new people.

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  • Nickvey
    5 years ago

    im sure you can find a guy that eats alone and ask to join him , because i see them all the fucking time . you dont do that because its out of your comfort zone.

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  • BossATsleep
    5 years ago

    you have 1 life. try to make some friends. try to find a job, you’ll probably make friends there

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  • [Old Memory]
    5 years ago

    Why don’t you get a job in a small shop where there are only a few staff? Sitting home or aimlessly walking malls isn’t going to get you friends or improve how you feel, but a job might.
    Walking the hour long maze around IKEA depresses everyone. Buying shit you don’t need is like paying a toll to get out.

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  • hannahmontanafanatic
    5 years ago

    same though. I'm an incredibly insecure and always need reassurance that my friends actually like me.

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    • 1think1mnorma1
      5 years ago

      welcome to the club bro I'd say add me on skype and we can chill and complain together but meet on Snapchat first sarahburch3612 is my user

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