I've done work, but i have no work ethic?

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This is probably related to the fact that it took me so much longer to fulfill my life goals than it took all my high school buddies. They got their careers pretty much down in less than a few years after graduation. Here I am, over a decade out having finally finished my degree and getting a real job. I don't feel nearly as happy as I think I should about getting these things, either.

Something just doesn't feel right. I don't feel like I've changed since the first time I dropped out of college, even though my record says I have. I'm not sociable and I don't want to work, I just act like I am and act like I do. It's like impostor syndrome, but for everything and not just my career. It seems like other people just have this innate drive, while I have to force myself to do anything that involves getting fully out of bed, other than eating.

I downloaded an app called Finch on my phone a couple of weeks ago, which is supposed to help you structure your life better. No matter how much I get done, though, it's just not clicking. I'm feeling healthier, but not happier.

I wouldn't describe myself as depressed (feeling extra down today compared to usual, hence this post, but it's not chronic). I'm just unfulfilled, and I don't really know what's missing. I don't have a girlfriend, but at this point, I'm worried that's going to end up like everything else: Not as great as I had hoped.

What do you think? Any advice?

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  • 555
    1 year ago

    No advice because I'm on the same boat. I have no "passion" for anything at all in this life. And in my previous work experience I was really eager to do my job and had colleagues trying to sabotage my success, so now I just want to do the bare minimum and not draw any attention to myself. I realized that it's really easy to make enemies even if you're not looking for conflict.
    Like you, I wouldn't describe myself as depressed, I just don't feel like making an effort to achieve anything, because I know that at the end of the day, it won't be worth it.
    It's like other people have a spark in them that I just don't have.

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