I want my boyfriend to own me

I met my boyfriend online, he is 26 and I am 19, which I know there will be all manner of comments about but we are both adults in a consensual relationship.

This is my first real relationship and it has helped me figure out a lot of things about myself, my future and my place in the world. I’ve came to the realisation that I’m extremely submissive and that it’s my main goal and purpose to please someone else, namely my boyfriend. I realised this really in one moment during sex. He grabbed my hair, told me he can do anything he wants to me and then finished on my face. All I wanted was to hand myself over to him completely in all aspects of my life. I told him and I’m his property and his toy and then he gave me the most amazing night of my life.

The next morning I told him that I meant it. I was his completely to use as he pleases and I belong underneath him submitting in any way he chooses. This was completely my idea and he was previously very supportive of me having my own life and goals but when he saw that it was what I wanted, he gladly took part.

A while later he suggested that I leave college, which I did in a heartbeat. He makes enough money so I moved in with him. It sounds like I’m setting women back a hundred years but I was really leaving a life that didn’t make me happy to do something I really need and enjoy. I am now basically like a housewife but without being married. I will take care of the house and pretty much do what I want while he is at work then before he comes home I will get ready and wait for him, usually on my knees.

I then spend the whole evening and night being there him in any way he wants me. We have a lot of sex and he can use me sexually as he pleases but he will also give me other orders like to wait on him and bring him things or to wait on my knees while he does something else, he also takes me out and show me off to his friends.

He is not abusive. He is not violent and whilst he does manage our finances, it is only because I am not bringing any money in and he will buy me something whenever I want it and he loves to treat me. He frequently tells me he loves me and that he is honored to be with me and own me. It might sound odd but we are both very happy.