I want to be religious but
I want to be religious but I cant find any good religion, its really bonkers.
I somewhat identified as wiccan for years but I find its lack of history and deities of its own to be bad. It just picks and chooses from all well established religions. Some even identify as christian AND wiccan which makes no sense, those are 2 different religions... In wicca anything goes though. It's like a non-religion where you choose whatever fits you at the moment.
Christianity has its good and its bad. I cant stand hardcore christians who use scare tactics and threats on the daily. I like that it's monothestic though as naturally I only believe in one source of good. I also believe Jesus was real but that it's questionable how literal the bible is (probably not very).
Then there's other religions. Norse mythology has intrigued me especially since i'm scandinavian so I actually have ties to that, I didn't watch Thor in Avenger one time and went "now that I think about it i'm 5% scandinavian according to this test so I am going to worship Thor now!! yay!!" Yeah yeah. However it doesn't feel right because there's a lot of negative parts to those myths as well, like when Odin raped Rindr for example. And let's not forget how many people worship and love Loki because in modern "cool" and "awesome" superhero movies he's some badass "sexy" bad guy. Well, he was a terrible person. He indirectly murdered Odins best son who was basically the Jesus Christ of norse paganism just because he was jealous and bitter. Not to mention he constantly decieved and betrayed the other gods for fun and was basically a narcissist who only cared for himself.
And islam i'm not even going to dive into.
I thought religion were supposed to be good yet all of them have massive flaws. I am a spiritual person and I just want to be part of an established belief system.