I want to move to alaska, and i don't know why
I really don't know why but for a while I've been considering it, off and on. I have family and friends here that I really love (good relationships) with no problems. I live with my parents, pay rent and various bills, since living in my area is expensive (won't give exact location - but within New England, USA) and they'd rather me stay home and make money, since I'm a good kid and productive. I have a boyfriend, we've been together for a year and he plans living together within the next few years either staying where we are, or New Hampshire.
Now that I'm writing I feel like wanting to move out is to be more independent for myself. I'm a bit of a baby, I'm 22 but unfortunately have the mentality of someone a few years younger - naturally childish and all, but I can be mature when the situation calls for it.
Job-wise, my current job is flexible in that I could simply ask to be transferred to any of the two thousand locations worldwide, so long as that particular location will have a place for me. There are three in Alaska total, and I've been checking out the areas where they are (two in Anchorage, one in Juneau) so if I move to either of those locations I'm already guaranteed a job.
But I don't understand why Alaska. I could simply move to the next state over. I do not go out much, to save money. Part of me wonders if it matches up with my fantasy.
I just want to live somewhere small and cozy, I love wildlife and rural areas. I just want to ride horses and walk my (future) dog before and after work. But I could do that around here, so I can't understand why move to Alaska. Either way, moving doesn't have to be permanent. I could always visit and try it out, see how I like it - but what if I decide to stay?
I'd hate to break my mother's heart, and as for my boyfriend... that's a whole nother issue. He's pretty much got his life figured out, you know? He'll be 30 this year. He already has his career established, he wants to support me and buy a house, but I don't like that. I don't know how I feel about it. The more I'm writing, I think the more I'm understanding. My life so far just feels like I'm going along with the flow and doing whatever anyone else is doing. I'm comfortable and safe, and have yet to take the reigns and steer in my own direction.
But you know what, I think now's the time for a change. There's one thing holding me back (I think I might have ADHD that's severely interfering with my life - but after years of procrastinating I finally have an apt with my Dr. to see if I do, and if it's true, what I can have done about it to become a better, more focused person.)
I think I pretty much solved my own problem...but I'll take anyone's input or two cents here.