I witnessed a relative die and i can't get it out of my head

I am so sorry, OP. Ignore these horrid comments. They don't know what it's like, or they have no empathy.

Yes, this experience is distressing and does take a while to come to terms with and no, you never forget it. At the same time as being a natural thing, there also seems to be something very unnatural about death; a deep sense that it should not exist.

I watched a family member the way your loved one was, the night before they passed, and I saw an already-departed family member at the funeral home some years before that. These aren't easy experiences to process for me or for you, but they are experiences that can equip us to help people and inform our own priorities and beliefs if we process and use them right.

I'm very sorry for your loss. At least they are no longer in pain now, and that is such a sweet gesture of you to name your child after them.

That's an incredibly sweet gesture. I don't know why sometimes good people have such terrible luck. Even whole families seem to have an immense amount of tragedy. Hopefully, your future child will take inspiration from your relatives life and be just as kind.

That sounds like an awful state to have had to see them in. I'm really sorry you had to see them decline like that

Your last memory of them isn't the only one though. Remember them how they were in life, recall all the great memories you had of them, and yes, recall how they looked at 72 pounds as well. It's important to remember the good and the bad

Sorry for your loss. I hope you can recover from this

I'm very sorry for your loss.
It is very difficult when someone we love dies. It sucks. But give yourself plenty of time to grieve. There is no schedule. I was with my father when he took his last breath not quite 2 months ago, my mother almost 5 years ago & my grandfather almost 25 years ago. I know the feeling well. They are no longer in pain and are out of their suffering. Always remember your loved one who has passed wouldn't want or expect you to despair because they are gone. They'd want you to live at your best. Make them proud and honor their legacy. Good luck to you.

I always say that seeing someone die with cancer is one of the most horrible thing ever. I had a similar experience with my aunt. I loved her so much and seeing her suffering and being in so much pain was terrible. On her last day I went to see her and she was staring at the ceiling and there was this veil on her eyes. I knew she was leaving. I stood there shaking and I went outside and began to walk, five minutes later I got a call telling me she was dead. But I knew that she was going to die that day, her eyes told me so. I never cried that hard in all my life. She was like a mum to me. I haven't got over her loss.

I still think of her very often.

My condolences.

Damn sorry for your loss. We all gotta go through it. Its rough.

In the end, it was something she chose for herself. It's not your fault, I'm sure you tried your best.