If i have gender dysphoria but don't transition, can i be a crossdresser?

I'm a gay male, and I initially grew up wishing I was a girl. I think it started from just being more feminine and wishing I could embrace it the way girls were allowed to. As I got older, this then moved on into having body insecurities. But even when I started taking hormones, I began to get too uncomfortable with the idea of staying on them, because I was nervous about the risk of cardiovascular issues, even if it was a small risk. Then there was the surgery, which was even scarier. I even decided not to get breast implants, because I didn't like the idea of pinning so much happiness on something that would need to be removed and replaced in maybe 15 years, or getting breast implant illness, botches etc. But now that I've decided not to transition, I still feel very drawn to hyper femininity. I like very ethereal, witchy women's clothing, feminine jewellery and accessories, and having long hair. But does that stuff look too ridiculous if you're staying male? I admittedly do look and sound very feminine, but I just don't know how I'd feel dressing like that around people (even though I want to)