Is it normal after i told her how i felt, i plummeted into anxiety and....

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22f and over a month ago I told a past friend I had always had feelings for her. Basically she told me we had a connection and she does love me and that it was real but it was different. Prior to telling her,I had major anxiety and even though I told her I still have anxiety and now depression! I keep trying to think positive but it doesn't work and its like I've lost all rational thinking! I seriously have dark thoughts about ending my life because I am stuck in a cycle. I can't eat, sleep or function properly. Anxiety is always on my mind. I don't even think of her that much and I understand the fact that its not meant to be yet im stuck with fuking anxiety! Its in my mind 24/7 which creates it! I am seeing a practioner but nothing is working. I think I'm forever stuck!

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  • Ellenna
    7 years ago

    If you've only been seeing a therapist for a short time, you need to have more patience with yourself and the practitioner. Be gentle with yourself and fully engage in the therapy, also try and eat healthily, get enough sleep and exercise - I wish you well

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      Also I haven't been eating much because I get anxiety over food as well . idk where on earth that came from because I've always loved food!! I'm on sleeping pills but most nights I feel drugged out and not knocked out if u get what I mean :/

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      Thanks Ellena !
      I'm not seeing a therapist but a natural practioner. I'm hoping in time my mind will come right. Its difficult because I'm an impatient person, especially when it comes to my self and I tend to beat my self up when I get weird thoughts and such.

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      • Ellenna
        7 years ago

        What sort of natural practitioner? I ask because I've had good experiences with both qualified and non-qualified therapists.

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  • SockUnicorn92
    7 years ago

    I'm stuck in anxiety too but once you get past the depression you'll have a mutual relationship with the anxiety lol. Just focus on getting past the depression and you'll feel a whole lot better. But totally see a pro about this tho.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      Thanks, i keep going in and out of depression. Mostly I live in fear.

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      • SockUnicorn92
        7 years ago

        Maybe I'm lucky but as I got past the depression I found it was more difficult to slip back into it. It was just easier for me to not be depressed...it is draining and takes a lot of resources. Just focus on the good feeling when you get out of it before going back in. Perhaps you may feel what I did. It's like your mind builds immunity to an illness. I really feel for you tho.

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  • mysistersshadow
    7 years ago

    Just becos you want something doesn't mean you get to have it. Life is full of situations like this. Learning to cope with them isn't necessarily easy but its something you'll have to figure out if you ever want a normal life. There are meds that can help have you tried any of them?

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      I understand that and yes I do have prescribed drugs from doc but tbh im afraid of their side affects and possibility it could get worse ..
      I am also seeing a really good natural practioner and I'm hoping in time, my brain will stop glitching ! :/

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