Is it normal fetish for feminists

Ok I am a woman but I always sexually fantasize as a male, I have a fetish towards being a guy and being submissive towards a hardcore feminist type (not the ugly stereotype ones, I mean “terf”s or conservative type feminists are usually somewhat attractive), feeling like I am “one of the good ones” in her eyes, basically I get turned on by being looked down upon by women and pitied but for some reason it only works if Im a guy in the fantasy and a rather pathetic one at that. I’m not into lesbian or hetero stuff irl though