Is it normal i’m worried about the dumb things you’ve said online?
I’ve been using the internet for most of my young life, having been born right before the turn of the millennium, and like all people when they’re young I did some pretty stupid and cringe worthy things, but had the problem unique to this generation of having most of it on the internet.
Now, an obvious solution would be to delete it all, and I have deleted certain things in the past, but I can’t help but feel a bit cowardly and dishonest doing that, instead of owning up to my mistakes. Plus, a lot of what I’m referring to is on yahoo answers, which last I remember you can’t delete questions from (at least after they get best answer. I haven’t been on there in a while, for obvious reasons).
The worst part is is that I have a dream of becoming an author, and even if my writing is only moderately successful, there’s still bound to be some people curious about me and the things I did. But even beyond that, what if someone decides not to give me a job because of all the weird shit I’ve posted online?
You might think it’s just typical cringey kid/teenager stuff, but I somehow feel my stupidity was unique. I nonchalantly talked about fetishes and thought God was communicating to me through weird means, and there’s one moment in particular that stands out that’s haunted me for years! I know I’m probably exaggerating, but sometimes I feel like I’m just about the dumbest person ever. Or at least I was in the past. Am I just blowing this out of proportion, or have been gradually digging my own grave?