Is it normal i am experiencing trauma-like symptoms after being exposed to gore

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A week or so ago I had joined this discord server looking for some online friends, so I made an intro in the intros channel explaining some things that I always tell people I meet so they don't see me as rude or weird for infodumping or anything (I'm autistic). But then this group of people just start fuckin' harassing me, calling me slurs and shit for being autistic. I do prepare for situations like these with proof that autism doesn't equal stupidity, but they wouldn't listen at all.

I know I should have just left the server or whatever but I just felt compelled to prove to them somehow that I'm not stupid for being autistic. This went on until they, for some reason, sent me an image of a fucking severed head on a table. I only saw it for a few seconds but now I can't seem to get it out of my head. This wasn't the first time I was unwillingly exposed to gore online but for some reason it's the one that stuck.

Sometimes I look in the mirror and see my head and the image pops up again, I self harmed in the shower the other day and the blood made the image pop up again, some nights I can't sleep because the image pops up, etc. I don't know why it's like this it doesn't even feel like full blown trauma or anything, it barely effects my life. I have no idea how this is an issue for me when there are people out there who actively look for these images.

I really want to know if this is normal or not. Am I just weak? Am I just too soft or something? Please tell me.

(Also just fyi I did leave the server STRAIGHT after seeing that shit)

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  • whatthemonkey
    1 year ago

    Absolutely. Talk to someone you trust please

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      1 year ago

      I can try talk to my psych about it. I'm just concerned if it goes beyond the limits of confidentiality and then my mum will probably fucking think I've been doing some shady stuff online and I will be banned permanently.

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  • Tinybird
    1 year ago

    It's sad that so many people seem to have a problem with autistic people and make fun of us.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      1 year ago

      I know right?

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  • raisinbran
    1 year ago

    Look at more gory stuff, you'll become desensitized to it.

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    • 1WeirdGuy
      1 year ago

      I dont think thats healthy

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  • RoseIsabella
    1 year ago

    Tell your therapist about what happened, and then try to work through it with him, or her. Block those jerks who were harassing you, and report them if that's something you can do.

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  • josebaldo
    1 year ago

    Well, talk to someone about it. I've seen stuff like that in real life, in a traffic accident. I saw the guy's body destroyed and part of his chest was still figurable, but no head, arms or anything. It was a real mess all over and it made me feel sick for like two weeks. If it helps, at some point the feeling went away. I still have memories of the day.

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