Is it normal i am still stable?

No matter what happens there is someone far worse off then me at least in a psychological sense. I often wonder if perhaps the pressure to keep everything together as a child is what created the stability. However I just so lost as to why people around me have turned out so much worse than me and somehow it has such little effect on me.

Maybe part of it is how I was raised, but at the same time, I was always far more stable then the rest of the community. When I was a child I was terrified of everything, but I was curious and I was actually very reserved about my feelings. I was expressive outwardly in the way that I would dance, and wanted to be goofy but I usually didn't tell others how I was feeling. I would speak in thoughts even as a child, never in feelings.

Yet, I have seen people like me who have become bad people. I don't understand how they ended up on another path and somehow I am still stuck on this one. What makes me different from these people? I know the separation is morality, but why do these people lack morality? What creates morality?

My Ex was basically everything I wanted to be. I always had this person's abilities but I chose to behave myself since it seems pointless and irrational to manipulate people with sex appeal just to feed your own selfish ego.

I also had people force sex on me in the past and me just don't feel anything about it anymore even though I understand why its very traumatic. Usually, when it has happened, I would go home, Cry, take a shower, go to sleep and be okay in the morning.

I have such an extremely low emotional response to most things, but even when its cuts deep I not ever become the monster. I don't understand how there are so many monsters in this world. How am I still stable? How did I fall off the edge into the abyss and still am more stable then a bunch of other people who fell off the deep end? What makes me different?

Somehow there are so many people who have been driven completely insane. Yet, I been through the same stuff as a lot of these people and still a lot more sane then them. I don't understand what makes me so special, I shouldn't be. I should be just as fucked up too, and somehow, im not.

Both my parents have abandonment issues. My dad is Narcissist, and my mother is bipolar. I dont know how I can deal with crazy people everyday, and still be sane, and I dont know how somehow I not been driven crazy when I been abused by everyone I known since I was 6 years old.