Is it normal i can't trust my decisions if i go to sleep?

I have some sort of disorder or some huge issue. So many times I have screwed myself over because I go to sleep determined, but when the time comes to wake up not only am I a coward but I change my decision to "not do" whatever I had planned to do

This is the number one reason I have failed exams. I go to sleep thinking "Ok wake up 4am so you can study extra until your exam at 10am." I wake up at 3:45am, have a small mental argument with myself whether I should to wake up (lasts seconds), and I snooze for an hour longer. Then wake up hour later, mental argument, snooze again. Rinse repeat. Until it is 9am and I now NEED TO WAKE UP to actually go to class. And I decide, "fuck it. It's not the end of the world." and go to sleep for good

If I was not sleeping, or not between the state of sleeping and awake, I would never bunk exams. Yes exams are not the end of the world but they are important. Normal awake me understands this and would NEVER miss exams like this. But my curse is my sleep. I have noticed poor sleep quality (tossing and turning, lethargy, maybe even dehydration) and unpleasant dreams (not nightmares) are also related to this.

And this issue has become so bad that it has branched to other things, not just exams. Twice I made 8am plans with my friend and bailed. Those plans were fun and required no preparation! What the hell is wrong with me? Please help

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  • thegypsysailor

    Sorry, but it seems you completely lack self control. As you mature, you should be able to control your actions and direct your energy in the correct direction. I do not believe there is a medical excuse for this one, I think you just need to learn to follow through on your commitments, even if they are only to you.
    If its about alarms, put the noisiest, most annoying alarm clock far out of reach, so you will have to get out of bed to shut it off. This may help, but that doesn't sound like your problem.

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    • You bring up a very good point. I have great self control when I am awake but not when I am asleep or half asleep. Currently I have a very gentle low pitched alarm, which wakes me up just fine I am not a deep sleeper I wake up very easily. I will try that and see if it helps.

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  • reminiscent

    Ok well its actually better to study before you go to sleep...it will help you remember more.
    also while you are studying you should chew some gum then while taking the test chew the same type of gum.
    Drawing doodles that have to do with the study material helps me remember things.

    Why not wake up at a better time like 8am and have your notes out to review while you eat breakfast then go to your exams.

    You dont seem like a morning person so try to make plans later in the day.

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    • But I am a morning person! I love mornings and am a happy person then. It is just that my sleep or dreams cant be trusted. They leave me in mentally disfigured states.

      I have been able to sleep for 3 hours and wake up no problemo for exams or whatever many times. Yet this happens sometimes

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      • reminiscent

        Mmmm idk then ...I usually need a goid 8 hours of sleep.
        I tend to set 2 alarms one for me to wake up then I lay in bed for 10 min waking up after my 2nd alarm goes off I get up and im goid to go.

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