Is it normal i can't trust my decisions if i go to sleep?
I have some sort of disorder or some huge issue. So many times I have screwed myself over because I go to sleep determined, but when the time comes to wake up not only am I a coward but I change my decision to "not do" whatever I had planned to do
This is the number one reason I have failed exams. I go to sleep thinking "Ok wake up 4am so you can study extra until your exam at 10am." I wake up at 3:45am, have a small mental argument with myself whether I should to wake up (lasts seconds), and I snooze for an hour longer. Then wake up hour later, mental argument, snooze again. Rinse repeat. Until it is 9am and I now NEED TO WAKE UP to actually go to class. And I decide, "fuck it. It's not the end of the world." and go to sleep for good
If I was not sleeping, or not between the state of sleeping and awake, I would never bunk exams. Yes exams are not the end of the world but they are important. Normal awake me understands this and would NEVER miss exams like this. But my curse is my sleep. I have noticed poor sleep quality (tossing and turning, lethargy, maybe even dehydration) and unpleasant dreams (not nightmares) are also related to this.
And this issue has become so bad that it has branched to other things, not just exams. Twice I made 8am plans with my friend and bailed. Those plans were fun and required no preparation! What the hell is wrong with me? Please help