Is it normal i can't vomit?
The way I act around vomit would make you think it were the most noxious substance on earth. If I see it I am filled with terror and want to run away. If I smell it I feel distress. It's stupid I know. It's hardly going to reach out and grab me. But the irrational terror is stronger than me. It seems to detach itself from all reason. I think this is what people call a phobia.
I haven't vomited in at least 10 years. At first I just stopped myself vomiting by willpower. Even when I felt the horrible acidic stuff rise up my gullet, I forced it back down with all my might. But as the years have gone by, it seems my body itself has stopped allowing itself to vomit. Even when I'm really ill, the only way my body ever even 'thinks' about purging itself is through diarrhoea. And I've had a LOT of that. My gut is really sensitive.
Is this healthy? What about when I might need to vomit? What if I swallow something poisonous and need to purge it asap? What if I get pregnant and get 'morning sickness'? Will it be 'morning diarrhea'?
Is it normal to never vomit? Is it even safe?