Is it normal i cant stand my husband? how to know when its over?
Ive been married 18 years, what can I say, I outright dislike him as a person and am disgusted by his sex hang ups.
He started smoking again, whines incessantly about how he hates his job, life isnt fair blah blah… and he wont even help his own father move and Im the one who visits him . He is abrasive and got fired from his last job for punching a guy in the face( security).
Also he said he pretty much hates my natural hair color so I bleached it and damaged it and he doesnt like it short now because I had to cut off the damage( if hed paid for salon it wouldnt have gotten messed up). But he bitches about spending $$$.
Worst of all he has cuck fantasies, he can only get off pretending I’m fucking his brother( whom I despise) or a black guy. He even played games texting me like he was a stranger. Ive told him I dont enjoy this, esp the brother thing but he insists that I like it.
I hate to throw 18 years of my life away but I’m ready to call a lawyer Im just done.
Thoughts? One son and I’m 40. Please help me decide what to do. I havent been happy in a long time.