Is it normal i don't feel my nationality suits me?

Meanwhile, I often think that my nationality does not suit me. I am the son of an immigrant family btw.

To be precise: We actually come from Central Europe, then emigrated to the Netherlands and Scandinavia, then travelled to the West (Great Britain etc) and from there back to Central Europe (Germany, Poland). Had the noble title of Prince there until about the Second World War. Then in the middle of the war my ancestors fled because they had Nazi contact, but were not caught or anythin because they are actually against National Socialists. Somethin like that.

I was born in Germany, so I'm actually German. But I don't consider myself German. Even if some values sound good, somehow they are not quite my values. It's not my world.

My family tries to instil them in me, but for me it feels artificial. I am quite honestly not nice, friendly, courteous, polite, overly hardworkin in all cases, cosmopolitan or whatever. I am, no shit, someone who, through this upbrinin, just represses everythin to thank even the ATM and get so upset deep down. I hate immigrants (haha, yeah, I know). Not all of them suck, but the ones I've seen I'd like to burn. I think my own values are the best, I openly admit. I like to drink a lot of alcohol in pubs to just forget about edeadthin that's goin on. Bein drunk gives me as much pleasure as drinkin brew with the real good neighbours and talkin about trivial thins or havin a heart to heart with close friends. I'm proud of my work because it helps keep the place runnin without anyone realisin it. When I'm not lookin like a thug, I look like Casual, because for me, walkin around in sweatpants or flip-flops to work like I've booked a beach holiday just doesn't grace me. I'm a no-nonsense pessimistic asshole when I let it out, and I'm known for my dry, black humour, which has already made me enemies in Germany.

I just don't think I belong here. These people aren't my cup of brew. Does anyone know this? Is that normal?

Soz for that long text. Could have written even more but I think that’s enough. It doesn't even contain much important things, well. Only good thing I can recall in Germany is the toilets aren’t that mingin as in other countries where I’ve been already and there's plenty variety in food. If I don't find anything, it's back to a sandwich anyway.

You should hear me read this all. It doesn't sound German at all. And I didn't mention I hate France, did I. I don't know, eh, all of that has just pushed out of my brain like spaghetti out of a pastry board.