Is it normal i don't trust men?
Growing up, my brothers would beat, choke, and molest me. Despite seeing the bruises and knowing they were molesting me, my parents didn't care. In fact, when my main brother who beat me would do it, she would call the police and tell them I was suicidal and they took me away in handcuffs. She also let the brother who molested me from six to seven move back in with us when I was 16. He switched from shoving his fingers up my vagina and anus to grabbing my breasts and pinching my nipples. The police, mainly the very aggressive male cop who was designated for psych calls, got pleasure out of humiliating me and I had several rumors spread about me I was a criminal.
The brother who beat me committed suicide, and I finally got the pedophile cut out of my family because I had my boyfriend message everyone and tell them what happened to me and who did it. I actually had to sit with mom and force her to delete him off of social media and she said, "Because of you one of my children is dead to me." So I'm still to blame.