Is it normal i drink because i cant stand my husband?

It is what it is. I’ve come to the point where I can barely tolerate being around him. When hes home I either drink or try to avoid him. Its pretty much I dislike him and I’m having trouble hiding it. Felt this way for a while but it’s getting worse.
He keeps asking me if I love him I lie and say yes but idk how much longer I can fake it. I cannot see spending the rest of my life with this man. Maybe once our son goes to college Ill try to get out but for now I feel stuck . If I’m not drunk I just wanna cry if I have to be around him.