Is it normal i feel like my life is slipping away?

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Okay so im 22f and just a few days ago I did the most terrifying thing I'd ever faced in life so far. To most, its probably trivial ...I told a female friend I had strong feelings for her all these years ! I told her I "felt" something on the beach that day you said we had a connection. She was absolutely okay with it and she made me feel very comfortable with how I felt. Thing is, she rejected me. She said it was real and she loves me but it was different and we had a spiritual connection. I started crying and she asked if I'm okay with how I feel and I said I felt bad. She adamantly told me its okay and it doesn't matter if we are the same sex and she already knew how I felt about her and how its not awkward. The lead up to telling her almost took me out mentally! I had bad anxiety for about 2 weeks constantly and I couldn't eat, sleep or concentrate properly. I've now gone into depression because of all the anxiety. I also got panick attacks when I thought about her or hear from her. I have been brought up with a religious past so I feel I have morals deeply ingrained and that's probably why I get so anxious about having feelings for her. I'm also very frigid and the thought of being sexual with someone gives me anxiety so I can't actually ever have a relationship even if I fell for someone again! Help!? Idk how to get out of this dark hole? I was happier around her and now I'm also heart Brocken as well as trying to recover health wise from anxiety!?

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  • CountessDouche
    7 years ago

    You need to talk to a therapist.

    Rejection can be devastating on it's own, but it seems as if you are dealing with a lot of other serious anxiety and guilt problems due to your past, and coupled with pain your experiencing, it's become too much.

    There's no shame in seeking help, but the amount of anxiety you are suffering from and the resulting physical symptoms are not normal. You shouldn't have to live like that. You need to ask for help.

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  • Ass_gas
    7 years ago

    I think you might be paralyzed by shame. Stop going to church, get CBT from a therapist, and go make friends on the lesbian section of a nude beaches near you.

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  • riffraffy
    7 years ago

    Female version of the friendzone. You need to stop trying to satisfy your fulfillment with this girl. Focus on creating things, improving yourself and your skills. Your esteem will return.

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