Is it normal i find friends useless
In highschool I had this huge thing for a girl in one of my classes, she was STUNNING. Inexperienced, and a fairly gullible, i seeked the advice of my friends. I had more friends at that point in high school (the end of senior year) than ever before so i thought i might be able to finally put them all to good use. Unfortunately i ultimately realized the flaw in my planning. A great deal of my friends had little to no connections to set me up with this broad, and they instead offered an endless wave of interest and obsession with my love life, since it was a side of myself i had usually never exposed. I would ask what they thought of her looks and they would say "shes totally out of my league: which bothered me because i hate being around people with no drive. Apparently for one member of my group of frieds their interest peak. Then the sh*t hit the fan, one of my friends not only annoyed the hell out of me with their delusion, but used my desperation for their own entertainment an set me up for failure. I was back-stabbed and my opportunity was ruined, as he attempted to go after the girl i had been planning to go out with for months, and only later did i find out that he was all talk and no action. He was pretty thuggish too. He wanted to become a rapper and often caused scenes, so i probably have seen it coming from a mile away. He was the kind of person who would shoot down every idea you shot at him but then would use at least half of them to his own benefit, but i digress.
Other friends who i befriended either because i didn't want to be rude by ignoring them or felt the need to have more people rooting for me in life, turned out to be complete losers. One guy i used to spend my afternoons with, had no prospects in life whatsoever, agreeing with me on everything. He was bug eyed and considered himself a loser, because he was afraid to life a life outside the comfort of his home and was kinda like a nerd except he wasn't smart. In fact i had many friends like that over the years and i often was the one who was trying to convince them to be positive and to push themselves, but i'm starting to think that maybe i'm just picking these sorts of people because they were easy to befriend.
I was tired of being afraid to post pictures with these people on facebook because it made me look like a loser to family in different states. I want friends who act their age and don't spend half their time playing video games like kirby and mario. Who want to date, who want to work, who want to change with the times instead of wearing a slightly bigger version of the hoodie they wore when bush was president. I know life ins't a target commercial but can i at least have some friends who aren't retards, creeps or jerks! it seems as though its some sort of curse.
I focus on more productive things these days. Friends are overrated in my opinion. I'm sticking to the small group of friends i have amassed over recent months. And if things between then and i fall apart, i'm not gonna make a huge effort to regain them. I feel more like these people can be trusted, have decent self respect and legitimately do root me on.Otherwise friends are the least important thing to me in my life. If anything they are a liability. Is it normal that i an totally fine with not having friends? are my reasons valid? any similar experiences with "friends"?