Is it normal i hate being around people?
When I go outside to places such as a shopping center I honestly hate it, especially crowded places with lots of people. I get on edge and I'm scared they'll do something, I go in panic mode after some time having to be in a crowded place and I'm alert to every sound and movement nearby, because I'm afraid.
Eventually I get really aggravated, I feel like lashing out or attacking strangers nearby because their too close, I can't trust them, even when they might just glance at me I feel like ripping their throat out.
I know it's unmoral behaviour, I can control myself but I can't stop my urges. I only have few friends and only one person I trust entirely, although this is because I've known them for nearly all my life.