Is it normal i love rubbing my fingers so much?

Hello all!

(ps: i am a girl, just like giving myself boy names).

I'm kinda glad i found this web-page because i've searched and searched the vast ocean which is the net, to try and find out if there is someone OUT THERE who is like me.
I have this very particular thing that i do. I guess you could call it compulsive because i do do it A LOT.
You see, for me, as weird as this is going to sound, when someone or myself (but always better if someone else does it hehe), here goes..... when i touch the tip part of my fingers I loooooove the feeling.
Its like my fingers are hypersensitive to everything i touch. Sometimes in the Subway, I HAVE to touch the coat of the person in front of me on the escalator (only if i'm sure they can't see me of course!). As a child, i used to love to dig my hands deep into the flour bag because its soft powder felt so good on my hands.
Also as a child i sucked my thumb until about the age of 8 and sometimes wonder if maybe my fingers just miss the feeling of always having my tongue rubbing on it (my thumbs are the fingers that call me the most for a rub, but in the last 10 years its become the other fingers as well, all though not as effective as the thumbs). And when i speak of affective, what happens is that when I unconsciously start rubbing my thumb for too long, it puts me to sleep because i get soooooo relaxed. Or i just disappear into a meditative daze.
But its way more then that. It just feels so good, i can just blank out and think about nothing and just feel what it feels like when that particular material or that particular shape digs into the tip of my finger. Its like a release, almost comparable to a great back rub, if i hit the right spot on my thumb it even makes me moan!
I have found in the last couple of years that i do it more and more. Is it possible that the addiction space in my brain is fully taken by this mysterious habit? I dunno? But i do feel that i am completely addicted to it.
When i was on vacation in Thailand, my friend showed me how you could get a massage, or even two a day!...if you wanted to, because they're so cheap over there. And it just so happens that when i go to the beach with all that sand and salty water, my hands feel even 3 times more amazing to me because i start getting slight challis. So one day, after i knew my masseuse quite well after two weeks, i asked her if she could only massage the tip of all my fingers for an hour. My travelling buddy burst out laughing because she new what i liked, so she hinted to my masseuse that i was a little bit of a strange one and they both had a good laugh, and so did the other masseuses have a good laugh at their fellow colleague when for one hour all i wanted this poor woman to do was RUB MY FINGERS.
I WAS IN HEAVEN!!!! Some people pay for prostitutes in Thailand, well, you could say that in my own way thats what i was doing - all i know is that it was heaven.
And MY was it sometimes hard to not moan, my eyes closed, every time i imagined the tiny ripples of her own fingers passing over mines! Ecstasy!!
Needles to say that for the rest of my trip i kept going back to this wonderful woman and asking her do to the same for an hour. While the other woman went about their routines of massaging the shoulders, then the neck, then the back ext ext.....All that mines had to to was stick to my tips lol!
I was even luckier when three days after, she brought in these small wooden watchamacalits and rubbed the tip of each of my fingers individually with it - it was absolutely wonderful - i felt she had really understood me - I fell asleep of pleasure.

Since Thailand - ten years ago now - i have found new and inventive way to rub my fingers in ways where i do not feel like its me doing it. I think i could compare this with what men refer to phantom limb "when they masturbate with their left hand so it feels like someone else is doing it".
In the past 5 years i have been using those nail machines (if any of you girls out there get your nails done, you probably know what i'm talking about). Its an electric filling machine that has different speeds and different tips you can put at the end on the machine itself. It just spins around really fast and if i'm not careful which tip i put on, i can dig a whole into my finger. My boyfriend bought me it for Valentine's day, can you believe?? lol. To me it was TRULY romantic. But i think he was happy because he didn't have to do it to me so much anymore! I was always asking him to rub my fingers while we'd watch TV before - ok, still do !! :)

So there it is - I should go on that show - "my strange obsession" lol !!!

I just wanna know - am i a freak? A weirdo? All of the above? Would it somehow seem even weirder if i was a boy?

The greatest thing about this though is that since no one know HOW MUCH pleasure i get out of this, a colleague might be talking to me at work, and i'm doing my thing with a pen cap or whatever i've found laying around that seems would hit that spot just perfectly - and i basically feel like i'm masturbating in public all the time - even though i know there no real climax, just total release and total relaxation......

And so i wonder: IS THIS NORMAL??? or is there maybe one, just one, person out there, just like me?

( Can't wait to see what kind of answers this will bring forth lol)

Have a lovely day everyone and thank you for taking the time to listen to a weirdo's tale !