Iin, i'm a girl but think i'm a guy?
Growing up all I can remember is acting and doing everything a boy does, (not saying every boy did this but it was more unusual for a girl to do things I did.) Literally as a baby everything had to be blue, my room, my bed, my clothes etc. otherwise I'd throw a fucking hissy fit.
In school and kindergarten I only had friends that were boys, I did everything they did such as taking football lessons after school and being outdoors climbing, walking through the woods, beating each other up, etc.
Because of this I literally never knew how to act feminine or around girls, I use to tease them and poke/hit/annoy them. My mother hated this and always tried to get me to wear dresses, be nice, get me girly stuff, etc. but I'd hate it. In primary school I even tried to use the boys bathroom.
I always rejected everything feminine and honestly I hate it when I'm called she/her/etc. I find girls attractive (I "married" another girl in the playground at school when I was like 7 but we broke up the next day and I chased her around with a spider and threw it at her) I do find guys attractive too but I find it more weird and I feel embarrassed for it and I don't know why?
I kinda tried making friends with some girls in high school but they were really boring and we didn't have anything in common so I stopped seeing them. There was one time a guy asked me to be his boyfriend and I told him to fuck off and that he was gay (I don't hate gay people though my friend is gay and he is cool.) Idk why but whenever a guy tells me he likes me I think he is gay and I start to hate him and get angry
I also kind of look more like a guy than a girl, my body is more bulky (not fat, like muscles because I workout) and my hair is usually short (long hair is stupid and it's fucking annoying)
Is this all normal? Am I actually a transgender? It's pissing me off that I'm confused about this. (also go fuck yourself if you're gonna post a hateful comment or some shit I'd wreck you in real life)