Is it normal i'm terrified of becoming like my mother
My mother has always been so over emotional and overeacts to every little thing. She used to constantly fight with my father and her problems with depression just made her an awful mother. It's not her fault that she suffers from depression but it doesn't change the fact that it severely fucked up my sister and I growing up.
Sometimes it feels like my entire identity is made up of me trying not to be like her. I try to go out of my way to not express emotion at all. I've decided that I never want kids because I'm scared I won't be able to be a good mom and I'll damage them emotionally.