Is it normal i pretend i am a gay boy?
I pretend every night that I am a Louis tomlinson and I am a gay teenage boy, (I am an 18 y/o girl) and I have fantasies about having a relationship with Harry Styles. I love the pairing, and I just get really happy thinking about it. I will make up different situations, I am blind or deaf, or dying, or injured, or homeless, or I have an illness, brain damage, and a lot more. all of them include me being in some way unwell, and Harry taking care of me. I have a pillow I use as a 'prop' and I can't sleep without doing this. I have done it for the past 7 years, with different people at first. I don't go to sleepovers often because I vocalize during it. I feel like a freak. Please tell me I am not the only one?!