Is it normal i resent my high school days?

So it’s been a little over two years now since I graduated high school, and looking back there’s very little I miss from then. The first like year and a half were ok, not really that much different from previous grades. Second semester of sophomore year and things got worse, but it was mostly in my personal life. First semester of junior year was ok too, although I noticed my teachers making very mean comments about younger students. From the second semester of that year onwards it was awful, just awful.

I could go on and on for hours but I don’t want to bore you all. My main two that I was mad at my teachers for were

1. Like I mentioned earlier, saying mean things about younger students. I get people mature as they get older, but I feel like some things my teachers said REALLY crossed the line, like when I my bio-ethics teacher used “should I push that freshman in the hallway” as an example of an ethical question, and how they used “freshman” like it was some horrible insult. I may need to make a whole separate question about this topic because I feel my school got WAY out of hand with this!

2. They took every opportunity possible to remind us how dangerous driving could be. Whether it be my health teacher constantly showing us results of accident victims, the principal incessantly reminding us it’s dangerous, teachers telling horror stories to their students, and just every other possible way of enforcing a message you can (it was baffling that these same people acting so surprised that kids were scared to drive. Were you not listening to your own fucking propaganda!?)

But my grudges against teachers aside, looking back, I did some REALLY irrational things about all this. I’ve even cried when reminded of the fact one of my friends started driving because I always had the dangers present in my mind. I had bad anxiety issues and really overreacted to things. On an almost daily basis I would have some sort of outrage, saying how much I despised certain people around me.

I’m being 100% honest here when I say: outside of some inspiration for my writing, there is NOTHING good that came out of high school for me. All it gave me was time wasted ranting, and giving me irrational fears and grudges. Any positive influences it had were completely indirect. If I had not gone through it, my life would probably be better right now.

I may expand later, as there’s much more to this, but I just felt like ranting.

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  • leggs91200

    I graduated way back in 1993 and still look back on high school with resentment.

    My late mom's 50th reunion was several years ago, maybe 2010 or 11 and I remember her saying, "I have no interest in going. didn't like those people back then, why would I want to see them now?"

    Point is, high school and especially middle school was a shitty time. Personal life might have been alright for most of us but the school daze was a bitch.

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  • sissycakes

    I think it is normal to dislike highschool. My highschool experience was not that great. I wasted so much of my life going to school and it has amounted to nothing. I even have a bachelors degree.

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  • Clunk42

    They don't warn you so much about car danger anymore. Also, what in the world is a bio-ethics teacher? Like, what is bio-ethics?

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    • palehorse

      > They don't warn you so much about car danger anymore.

      OP graduated two years ago. It probably varies by district, not by time - unless car education drastically changed in the past 24 months...

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    • It was basically a class discussing moral questions about science. Think the kind of topics brought up in shows like Star Trek (I actually started watching Star Trek because of a classmate from there. I guess add that to the list of indirect good things!)

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      • palehorse

        That's such a strangely specific class. I would understand having an ethics class that sometimes discussed science / technology, or a science class that sometimes discussed ethics, but a class just for the intersection of the two? Was it an elective?

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        • Yes

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          • palehorse

            Interesting.

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  • SmokeEverything

    Everything they taught you in school is propaganda. Try hitchiking around doing acid and shrooms for a couple years, should help unlearn all the programming.

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  • raisinbran

    Sounds pretty mild. You weren't bullied, jumped or threatened with various weapons and you're complaining?

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  • IceRed

    My high school experience lines up pretty closely to what you just described

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  • Unknown_player

    I wagged school a lot only sticking around for important classes. I do not recommend wagging. However for me it didn't affect my grades much. It just pissed off my teachers when i ditched. But come parent teachers day, one of my teachers said to my mum that I'd never amount to anything in life right in front of me. All because its not seen as being punctual. And that shit stuck with me ever since. Especially since, the only reason I wagged to begin with had a lot to do with pre-existing depression and anxiety

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    • Wag? I’ve never heard that expression before. I assume it means skipping.

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  • dimwitted

    High school is just something you have to get through to be in the even less enjoyable adult world.

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  • Boojum

    High School is shitty for a lot of people for a whole range of reasons, not least the fact that you're forced to spend time with a bunch of emotionally immature people who are dealing with hormone-overload while they try to figure out who the hell they actually are.

    Teachers are people, and some people are dicks. Some teenagers are also hypersensitive and hypercritical of adult behaviour, and it's not uncommon for that combination to lead to pupils coming to detest their teachers.

    As far as the fear of driving "propaganda" that irked you so much, it is a fact that traffic accidents are the leading cause of death and injury for teens in the USA. To some extent, that's due to other areas of life being safer than they once were: teens no longer work in very hazardous industrial or agricultural jobs like they used to, and it's very unlikely that they'll die of some incurable disease or a simple infected wound as once happened. But it is a fact that the totally unjustified feeling of invulnerability that many teens have leads to them taking risks when they drive, and lack of experience leads to them making foolish decisions when they're in control of a couple of tons of metal travelling at high speed.

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    • I guess the key word in that last paragraph is “most.” A problem I think is that people tend to assume that everyone in a certain age group are all exactly the same, which is simply not the case.

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      • Boojum

        Of course people are different, and there are sensible teenage drivers.

        But the statistics for car crashes in the USA broken down by age of driver make it very clear that young drivers are far more likely to have accidents than older drivers. The crash rate for drivers who are 16-17 years old is nearly double that of drivers aged 18-19 and more than four times that of drivers aged 30-59. That's why insurance for young drivers is relatively expensive.

        I'm in my sixties, I haven't had an accident in more than forty years, and I wouldn't drive if I thought I or my vehicle were unsafe. Still, I know my insurance rates are going to increase from peanuts to relatively expensive in the near future since the statistics show that older drivers have relatively few accidents, but when they do, they tend to be very serious. It irks me that I'll have to pay the price for idiotic elderly people who shouldn't be on the road, but that's just the way the world works.

        https://aaafoundation.org/rates-motor-vehicle-crashes-injuries-deaths-relation-driver-age-united-states-2014-2015/

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  • palehorse

    Normal, although I highly doubt that you gained no direct benefit from it - did four years of classes really not teach you anything? I highly doubt that, even if you don't think you use any of the knowledge directly. You probably learned quite a bit if you managed to pass.

    Also, none of this sounds particularly bad. I would consider what you mentioned mildly irritating at worst...

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    • Unknown_player

      To someone with anxiety it can be so much more than just irritating to them for any of this to happen

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      • palehorse

        Possibly, but then wouldn't OP be equally sensitive to other similar problems that are unique to adult life? Why would high school be especially bad?

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        • High school was my first real dose of adult life

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