Is it normal i sometimes wish i lived in my church?
To take it one step further, I also sometimes wish I could have lived in my church and not be allowed to leave it, or at least it’s immediate area. I’m 20 years old, and pretty much my entire teenage years I’ve spent conflicted about my beliefs. I’ve heard a lot of good criticisms against Christianity, but I’ve also heard a lot of horror stories about visions of hell and demonic possession. I’m really not sure if I believe in God or not, but in all honesty, either way is kind of terrifying to me. If God is real, then I’m probably in big trouble, as I’ve done a lot of so called “sinful” things, but if he isn’t, then we basically came from nothing and there’s no afterlife (and I’m not sure why but the thought of nonexistence is REALLY terrifying to me).
I sometimes wish I could just have been forcefed the Christian dogma I grew up with and was never exposed to the criticism over time. Life was a lot simpler back then.