Iin: i think everyone hates themselves and it's just a normal part of life?
I've always had a low self-esteem [23M]. Despite being attractive and 6'2", I've never known what it's like to love myself.
Whenever I go into a resident-student meeting at my university, for example. I always see these two beautiful women on the executive board. I just ASSUME that they are more ahead in life than I am, have better social skills, etc. etc.
Or if I see a beautiful 25-year-old woman on Instagram who has her shit together: the first thing that crosses my mind is, "a girl like that will never go for me", even if the subject of the photo/video is completely unrelated.
Even among platonic friends - my roommate, for example. He's tall, attractive (no homo) and ripped. He also knows how to cook and is a very good conversationalist. Our platonic female friends think he's such an awesome guy to be around (and they're right). I used to contrast myself to him in these regards, putting myself down because of it.
BIGGER PICTURE: I have always just assumed that EVERYONE has a low self-esteem like this. EVERYONE has doubts about themselves and hates themselves. EVERYONE IN THE WORLD, deep down inside, feels inferior to everyone else.
Self-hatred is just a part of life, whether it's a guy who is socially awkward, an athlete who doubts their own abilities, or a girl who feels like she isn't pretty enough. Even successful people like Donald Trump and Bill Gates hate themselves as well.