Is it normal i think like this?

Sometimes in life things happen that are completely accidental. Vehicle accidents, sporting accidents, amusement park accidents, etc. but when these sorts of things I happen, I wonder what the person who invented the instrument involved would have thought if they could see it. Did the people who first built these things know how deadly their invention could become?

I really want to get out more and do more fun things but this line of thinking has prevented me. I like to think of myself as a creative person, but I sometimes worry that I’ll accidentally cause something bad. Yet we always seem to give credit to good influences (for example, I recently saw a video where a guy explained how Batman positively influenced his life. Why is something like that normal to say, yet you’d be seen as ridiculous for saying that Batman caused the shooting at the aurora theater, which happened during a screening of a movie featuring the character?)

A lot of people tell me that things like cars were inevitably going to be invented, and that I can’t really pin it to one person. Yet that kind of negates creativity. Why create anything if someone else is going to anyways? Or because everything we create seems to have disastrous consequences!

I feel like if I had invented something like cars, I couldn’t live with myself. Even if I created something that helps tons of people, the fact that in any way shape or form I contributed to a person’s death is not something I could handle. I wish I could have just been a normal kid who learned to drive as a teenager, but through all this moral confusion I’m a 20 year old who’s sometimes reluctant to go inside a car.

Basically the bottom line is: I want to do more things. I want to be more adventurous and I also want to be more creative. But I worry that either something bad will happen to me, or that I’ll indirectly cause something bad to happen to someone else. And when people counter me saying that I could cause good things to happen, it seems contradictory. How much credit can we really give to someone’s creation for its affect on our lives? I just wish my brain didn’t over analyze everything!