Is it normal i think this is the reason death related things bothered me?
About a month ago I asked a few questions on this site regarding death, detailing how I was disturbed by the decaying process and how I hated cremation and didn’t like looking at bodies (I guess we can call this the conclusion to my “trilogy” of questions).
But as time has gone on I think I found a theory: It’s perhaps because it’s a reminder that it’ll happen to me and everyone I love one day. There’s one video in particular that gave me hope that immortality could be possible (https://youtu.be/lzJQ8OtSFk4) and ever since then I’ve been overly confident in the possibility of it. But I have to accept the fact that it probably won’t, even if we can live for a long time we still have to go eventually, and I think the reason I don’t like cremation is
1. It destroys any and all chances of being brought back and
2. It pretty much destroys you instantly. If I’m going to decay I prefer it to be a natural process!
I mainly got thinking about this again since I started watching the YouTube channel Ask A Mortician, which is good if you’re trying to get used to this sort thing, but some may find its humor a bit tasteless (you can watch it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgSZeOWBF8M&list=PL1mDlI5Pm3DKM0q5Ku_k3ewX4qydF0ZJp) And that’s another thing, maybe I subconsciously am mad at myself for being a bit tasteless and having too dark a sense of humor about somethings, but that might be going too deep.
These were my other questions, if anyone is interested:
https://www.isitnormal.com/post/is it normal i-wanna-be-cryogenically-frozen-when-i-die--276235
And
https://www.isitnormal.com/post/is it normal these-things-that-happen-to-dead-people-bother-me--276236
In both of these I left a comment on my final thoughts on what to do after my own death.