Is it normal i want to be a woman?

I'd like to preface this with two things:

1. I've considered the possibility of being transgender before. I do not believe I'm transgender. This isn't a a post about transitioning or claiming to be a different gender at all.
2. I'm not trying to downplay the patriarchal oppression of women and general misogyny that women have faced throughout history and still face today. My thoughts are just thoughts; I know they're incorrect.

I think what appeals to me about being a "woman" is the marginalization of the "woman" herself against the strong/masculine/leader figure. Being marginalized means that the "woman" figure has less responsibility and does not need to act as "proper" or be a leader.

... Maybe I just like being "different" (sorry to make you cringe), but I feel like I wouldn't mind being "different" as a woman while I do as a man. It feels like you have an excuse to be yourself, because you can, maybe rightly, blame the patriarchy and the overtly constricting nature of society.

I also love how women are allowed to express their emotions. Feminine emotionality and feminine aesthetics in arts/culture appeal to me much more than masculine counterparts. I love the "sadgirl" figure.

Add to this the fact that women are considered more attractive/desirable overall, more or less for free, regardless of their objective attractiveness. If a woman is not attractive, their lack of attractiveness can also be glamourized in a deeply personal way as well.

Again, I know this isn't a good worldview but they're just some thoughts I wanted to confess.