Is it normal that i apply my self-worth/esteem onto the grades i get?
I'm not beautiful, popular, or a good person so I feel like intelligence is the only thing left (I also really value it in its own right). If I get bad grades it's like it's there in black and white: I'm not good for anything.
Stupidity really frustrates me. I hate not being particularly good at anything (my grades aren't terrible, but average). I don't want to be a hypocrite.