Is it normal that i don't talk to my friends for weeks to months?
firstly, i LOVE my friends and they love me so the problem really isn't them or our friendship.
so i'm not good at social media, meaning i can browse through it for hours but not even look at people's messages. my preferred method of communication is face-to-face and in person. i'm bad at chatting and i feel like the other person is always carrying the conversation.
that said, with the whole covid thing, i can't see any of my friends (a lot of them are in another continent too) and so i haven't talked to them in like 8 months?
they hit me up recently saying they thought i was dead and i did tell the truth that i was depressed, felt like they didn't need me anymore and they seem to be doing fine without me so i deleted social media. they reassured me saying that they missed me and they are always thinking about me and we got to catch up for a bit and it was all fun until we planned to facetime.
i recognized the feeling of paranoia telling me that they're gonna drop me as a friend or scold me or idk! so now, days have gone by since we planned it and i feel like im going back into this hole of isolation AGAIN and never come back. is this normal? lmao am i mentally ill