Is it normal that i enjoy squeezing whiteheads, blackheads, zits, etc.?
Often I find a new zit on my face, arm, leg, anywhere on my body, and if it's a red bump (especially one with a white head) I squeeze it and watch all the blood, pus, dirt, or whatever come out. Sometimes only a little comes out, but sometimes I see a blast of fluids come out and it pops insanely. I think it's cool when that happens, like a blasting off of a rocket. I've had therapists and they ask if I pick and squeeze because I'm nervous or insecure, and I say what it really is- I do it because it's cool to see stuff come out, especially when there's a lot of it. I even find myself browsing YouTube for videos of cysts being popped and I watch them for hours. When I see zits on people, I think about me popping them. I sometimes think of zit popping as a sexual fetish, despite no genital arousal coming from it (unless the zit popping has something else in it that arouses me, like muscular guys).
So is this normal?