Is it normal that i fap with panties

You 'fap' and ejaculate into panties?

Or

You put the panties over your penis or inside your vagina and then 'fap'?

Or

You wear panties and 'fap' it like a dryhump kinda thing?

Or

You 'fap' and a bunch of panties 'fap' alongside you / in your immediate vicinity?

Normal and common fetish. Whose panties do you use or do you buy new ones?

Everybody faps in panties. Wear a different pair to bed every night.

Why woukdn't it?

Forgive english, i am Russia.
i am here little time. i am gay also and this very difficult for me, i am very religion person. i never act to be gay with other men before. but after i am in america 6 weeks i am my friend together he is gay also.
We sex together.i never tell i gay because i am very shame. As i fock this American boy it is very good to me but also i am feel so guilty. I feel extreme guilty as I begin orgasm. I feel so guilty that I pick up my telephone and call Mother in Russia. I awaken her. It too late for stopping so I am cumming sex. I am very upset and guilty and crying, so I yell her, "I AM CUM FROM SEX" (in Russia). I say "I AM CUM FROM SEX" and she say you boy, do not marry American girl, and I say "NO I AM CUM FROM SEX WITH MAN, I AM IN ASS, I CUM IN ASS" I hang up phone and am very embarrass. My friend also he is very embarrass. I am guilt and feel very stupid. I wonder, why do I gay with man? i dont no but it spurt it feel very good in American ass

What does it mean to "fap"? I'm an American. This sounds like some sort of Aussie slang so forgive my ignorance (a certain Aussie on this site will have fun with that statement). What then is the meaning of "fap". Or, rather, "to fap"? Tell me that and I'll tell you what I think.