Is it normal that i have had many negative experiences with atheists online?
Okay I will try to not make this TOO long. I am suffering from serious hurt because of my long-term interactions with the people who always call themselves "atheists." I have had ALMOST NO positive experiences with them. I will tell you what they do in a minute. I will tell you a bit about myself first.
I have lifelong psychological problems. I am also an overly emotional sensitive person, even as a man (I think that my father was even worse.) I became far more mentally sick as a teenager and have struggled to this day with this issue- 15 years now since I began "fighting" this issue. I am not religious in THAT sense or believe in THAT sort of a God. I believe in certain things I call "spiritual truths." I do not try to do anything "negative" because of my beliefs. Such include trying to pass unfair laws because of these beliefs or force these beliefs on others (really it is atheists who force their beliefs on me, and it is always them and not me or others forcing them on me others.) I don't even seek out converts. My beliefs helped me feel better by giving me hope and making me less depressed when I was going through so much harm, pain, suffering, depression, hopelessness, grief and suicidal ideation. It was actually a spiritual/theistic practice (the violet flame) that has enabled me to heal some of my psychological problems, improved others greatly and overall made me better psychologically.
Now, to be more specific, I will get onto the "bad behavior" that I have encountered a lot online from atheists:
They do everything they can to bully me and bring me down. One atheist just kept on insulting all of us theists by saying things like "theists are less than human", "the religious are subhuman retards" and "theists are defects." I have been kicked out of religion discussion groups on like FB by simply being a theist. And theists there kept on saying how ridiculous it is to believe in God. I have used Omegle and Yahoo! Answers Religion & Spirituality section for a while and they are quite bad. The latter has been described by so many as "very toxic", "full of uncivilized users" and a "complete battleground."
Many atheists would also challenge my beliefs. But they wouldn't do so honestly, sincerely and unthreateningly. Even when I do show something like "evidence for the existence of God", they then STILL don't change their minds. Honestly, what do they want from us? We theists have even had the experience of being called "stupid" for believing in God, the atheists have said that they are smarter than us theists and told us that we "believe in an imaginary being." Those are all demeaning, hurtful, offensive, degrading statements that take away our humanity.
Very few atheists didn't behave this way towards me. No more than 10% certainly. Atheists are always on religious places there uninvited.
I am honestly really hurt and maybe even really angry now that this has happened years ago. Maybe I still have PTSD.
No I DID NOT seek out atheists. They have started conversations with me. I never had any negative intensions towards them, or anyone really. I have went online to nicely, politely, well-manneredly, respectfully and peacefully discuss spiritual topics because I like this sort of thing and believe it. I did not ask to be treated this way or have "provoked" someone.
So, is this normal? How often does this happen to other theists?