Is it normal that i'm afraid of heights but i keep exposing myself to my fear?
I'm terrified of heights, but I feel compelled to expose myself to this fear. Like if I'm at the top of a set of spiral staircases and there's a four-story drop I feel the need to lean over the edge and look down. Today I was on a large boat and I was on the observation deck at the top, and I kept looking over the edge, even though it made me feel really uncomfortable. Maybe I'm just subconsciously seeking a thrill, I don't know.