Is it normal that i'm married but i love cocksucking
I am a 55 year old man, married for 30 years. About 7 years ago my wife lost interest in sex. I begged and waited on her she very rarely agreed and then when she did without any passion.
So I started hooking up with men thru craigslist. I always try to find other married men and always play safe. I feel some guilt but I need a sex life and my wife doesn't.
I've found I really like cocksucking. I'm not into kissing or hugging type stuff just cocksucking.
My biggest problem is finding suitable partners so I don't hook up often. I am always horny then and end up looking at porn and jacking off. Sometimes I eat my cum when I really miss sucking and eating another mans load.
I don't believe I'm gay since I do love my wife and don't have feelings for other men I just want to suck their dicks. I don't worry about if I am gay or not...I believe I'm bi.
I do know that I really like cocksucking and don't intend to stop. I have mentioned it to my wife and her attitude is she doesn't want to know about it. I doubt if I could ever be really open with her and just say 'I'm going over to suck off Bob, be back later/" But I'd love for it to be that easy.
Are there other married guys that have worked out a better way to having the sex life they want?