Is it normal that i'm not even self-disciplined enough to do what i love?

Last year was unstable and full of distractions. I tried doing the things I'm passionate about but just couldn't. This year, my life has stabilized but I feel I'm not appreciating it enough. I don't have a job, but I have skills that I could possibly utilize to create a business. I'm being lazy and feel like I'm not moving forward enough. Given it's been a while since I've been able to just sit on my ass and not worry about much and part of me loves that too, but it's so unproductive and the year is already half over. I don't hone my skills everyday like I should, though I've been given the perfect opportunity to at least do that. And on top of this, I somewhat miss all of that stress I've been fighting off for the past 3 years. It pushed me and now life is so boring. I wouldn't go back to the way things were, but I'm struggling to appreciate what I've got and the changes I've made and use it to my advantage.

I think I've taken enough time to recuperate, so when am I going to get going again? Now that I need not run from myself or my circumstances, when will I run to my complete freedom? I'm trying to build good habits and work every day, but that barely lasts a week and the next week I'm just wasting time again.