Is it normal that i'm scared of penises?
It's probably normal but I figured I'd ask anyways... I am not necessarily scared of penises, but they REALLY intimidate me. I'm a 17 year old girl who's a virgin so I'd imagine it's not all that uncommon for me to feel this way, but it still makes me uneasy. I have no problem looking at naked men in photos or porn, in fact I've drawn a couple penis artworks myself hahaha... but depsite all this, the idea of me seeing a penis with my own two eyes some day is extremely nervewrecking for me. I love men, I definely love dick, and I for sure want to have pleeeenty of sex some day, but I know I'm gonna be very shy and scared about it. I'm interested in looking at a man's genatilia, yet I feel like I'd be ashamed and wrong to look at my partner's naked body like that someday. I also feel like I'd be rude for staring him down, but I'm sure my overly-curious self wouldn't stop.
I know a penis is just an organ and it can bring me happiness, but honestly all it's doing ia bringing me anxiety no matter how badly I want it. Is that normal?