Is it normal that i need to pre-script all of my speech?
I need to pre-plan all of my conversations and other speaking situations. I spend hours thinking through potential conversations in advance and can only contribute properly if the conversation hits the topics of the passages I have pre-planned saying at some point in the past, which I then paraphrase very closely.
Otherwise, I cannot string words together on the spot, go on a lot of tangents, and fumble for the correct words to use. Often, people lose patience with that and just start talking before I even finish my ideas. It just seems to take me longer to find the words.
I am a graduate teaching assistant and my prof seemed shocked that I cannot run a seminar without practicing exactly what I will say for several hours in advance.
I am wondering how much this is part of a natural human condition or if this is a sign of something more specific in your case, if you can relate?