Is it normal that i talk to myself?
Ever since I was about 5, currently 20, I have talked to myself. Usually at night. I create dream scenarios of a better place with someone. With multiple people. I will pretend I'm both people, creating my ideal scenario/conversation/life with someone. I believe I used this as a coping strategy to not feel so alone as a child? I grew up in a traumatic home my whole life. I still currently live with the people who have troubled me. Only sometimes now, few times a month, do I do this. I am an only child, so never had anyone to talk to as a child either. Maybe this has some play into it? I usually end up crying, because of what I am doing. I realize that I am dumb, and something is mentally wrong with me, before I start crying and then fall asleep. But it helps me to not feel alone, and to feel like I am wanted and loved by these people that I reimagine next to me. What could I maybe be diagnosed with? What is going on with me?