Is it normal that i think i am not ready to transfer but want to so badly?

Usually transfer students are already old enough to not even bother living on campus or they're just already independent and they're only going to a university for education. In my case, I am planning to transfer this fall, of course I'm excited to get study my major and all that but honestly, my main goal since I decided to transfer was to finally have a normal, social life. In high school, I was just blah. I wasn't a geek so people didn't completely make fun of me, yet I was awkward and reserved I believed but it all came down to because I didn't trust anyone there, which they took it as "shady" which lead to rumors and gah high school. SO basically at the end of my high school career I was ready to get the f*ck out so I didn't bother making friends or anything. Instead, I was too excited to leave and possibly start over like everyone says and make tons of friends. Well, community college for me is kind of hard to make a group of friends but then I see others like my friend who started CC her first time during my sec year and she made more friends in a class than I would make in a semester. I was like wth?! The worst part is she made a lot of friends in OUR class which from what I remember she wasn't that social or out there but then I see on facebook and they're all friends and talking and me? nada.
So I kind of don't care if I didn't make as many friends as I wanted to in a CC because I was looking forward to it once I transfer but I realize now, it would've been nice to have a couple of friends already so I don't go in a university as loner like I did coming from HS. I plan to attend rush for a sorority wishing that I'll make all the gfs I never had but I don't know if they take juniors. So here I am, happy I got in every college so far I've applied to. So far one is out of state, one is 20 min away, and 2 are good enough distances to make me homesick (3-6 hrs away). I got what I want and now it's up to me to take it. Yeah it would be dumb if I didn't after waiting two long years to finally leave! However, in reality, I've been with my fam this long, not to mention in this area since like 2 yrs old so it's hitting me slowly but surely that I'm gonna be a loner again but this time I don't have home to go back to and be my happy self. And plus, deep inside I feel like my family doesn't think I can do it or don't have the balls to leave so that makes me even want to leave more but then I hold back like whoa okay slow down. It makes me freak out like okay please do the right thing. If I go to the college thats like 20 minutes away from here Im going back to high school all over again since the majority from there go there and no thank you! Its not a bad school especially for my major and plus I have a new friend, not from HS, who offered to be my roomie if I go there since she goes there so Im oh okay...wait! I cant possibly go there! cause Im gonna see the people I dread for life all over again! Then there's other schools that I applied to near here in the La area but I haven't heard from them but they're basically my best bets because its here yet its not the school thats 20 minutes away so HS people won't be there! So I'm hoping I get in one of those and I would probably live with my friend if she's still willing to. But I want to get out of here and explore! but now Im getting scared especially its gonna be a university so the classes will be harder and Ill be all alone to deal w it :/
So Im torn about what to do...