Is it normal that i want to experience the events of the game “your boyfriend” irl

After playing the game “your boyfriend”, I’ve found that I don’t think I would mind if the events in the game happened to me irl, and actually kind of want it to happen to me (with my knowledge beforehand).

To those unfamiliar with the game, it’s a visual novel about a man named Peter who is obsessively in love with the player. He stalks you and sneaks into your closet at night, waiting until you’re asleep to grind on you. He then later kidnaps you, wanting to give you all his love.

I’ve been in a weird place in my life lately, and I think part of the reason for me wanting this to happen to me has something to do with wanting an escape from things in life. I want to find someone who could actually do this or something similar, but don’t know if that’s even really possible. (I know it’s not realistic, but maybe there’s a chance)?

I also like reading y/n fanfics about other characters I like doing the similar things lol. Is this bad that I like this? Would it be safe to talk to a therapist about this?

And if it is possible, how/where would I go about finding someone for this?