Is it normal to attain happiness while being schizophrenic?

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Hello everyone.

So, basically, I have known that I had schizophrenia since my early adulthood. It was a rough battle at the beginning, but I feel like I have reached a point of tranquility and high functionality for many years already. I have been really healthy and off meds for some time as well.

My issue is this. When I am doing well with my life and everything works the way it's meant to be, I feel great. It is as if I was not mentally ill at all. In fact, no one really suspects I have this issue. The problem with me is that as soon as something dramatic happens in my life, I always have this primal fear that I will go through one of those episodes of panic-attacks/hallucinations/paranoia. I think that only people that have gone through that can understand how horrible it is.

Either way, I have been having some economical problems lately, nothing extreme, but just a series of issues. And I just had one of this aforementioned episodes. And I just thought... damn, this thing will really torment me until the day I die. And I don't know, I just feel so depressed now, because I realize that I will never be happy like this. I am at an age in which I have to start thinking about getting married or having kids... but I truly feel that I am not reliable enough for that... so, I'm kind of just drawing myself from society slowly.

Anyway, I just wanted to know if anyone can relate to this and give me their input.

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  • bananachair
    7 years ago

    My 29-year-old son is schizophrenic. He will never be able to go off meds--- it is impressive that you are doing so well. It really can be a manageable illness. I would say, everybody has times when they feel out of control, even when they are mentally healthy. You should stop being so hard on yourself, and realize that you are functioning incredibly well for someone who is dealing with a lot. A mental illness is no different than a physical one-- in fact, it is a physical illness. I really feel for you, seeing what my son is going through. It's a lot to handle. People give lasagnas to friends going through cancer, but for a mental illness they look the other way. It is hard to say whether you can handle getting married and having children. You are the only one who knows that. But plenty of people are happy without marriage and kids. You are the architect of your own happiness, and you can create it with a solid life full of volunteering, work, friends, family-- whatever makes you happy and fulfilled. Your diagnosis doesn't have to define you. Good luck! You are very strong and brave.

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  • GOODCHILD
    7 years ago

    Stay on your message and this is less likely to happen, even if you are not having hallucinations

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  • mysistersshadow
    7 years ago

    Why do you have to get married or have kids?

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